My birthday; Third October

A lil late but I'm really thankful for all the wishes I received from my friends, cousins, basically my love ones. When the clock strikes twelve, I was actually anticipating to receive a call. However, there's none. No doubt, I was a little disappointed.

Anyway, I'm thankful for those who are part of my life. I know I am someone who appear to be 'dao', nonchalant in another word but I'm glad for those who stay in. Notice the heading of my blog 'If only time could come to a standstill'. Well, I'm pretty much stingy inexpressive with my words and there are MANY times that I do REGRET not saying out how I feel and what I want. Guess there's still the introvert within me. And one thing for sure, I can't accept rejection. Haha, ya! My skin is that thin! Thus, I wouldn't take an initiative to date someone out unless I'm sure he/she is free.

So yup, I'm thankful for the wishes, thankful for the love, thankful for the weather on my birthday itself as it appears to be gloomy. Felt really blessed. If only everyday could be my birthday. Haha, nah. Don't really adore to be the center of attention unless its with my close ones.

Decided to go simple with just a basic tube maxi but then, guess I won't wear it again unless I'm on a beach vacation.

Ending my night with a sweet note; panna cotta. How creative! :)

Thanks for everything guys! ♥♥♥♥♥

Thoughts: Photo strips

I lay in bed at night unable to sleep thinking about

 You

 And wonder if maybe you're lying in your bed unable to sleep thinking about

Me

 

And they said the nicest part about being a pessimist is that you are constantly either proven right or pleasantly surprised

So fill your heart with whats important and be done with the rest

 Well, my heart has turned into a compass that always points me back to him

"Lie to me again" she whispered

 "I love you" he said

Bedroom revamp

Took a while to consolidate this post. I have been thinking of doing a revamp for the longest. But that's all words and no actions. So during Mid May, I finally decided to work on this project. Don't get too shocked for the next following photo. I know it doesn't seems habitable, but well, my sis and I made do with it for years. Haha. A pig sty, that's what my mum describe my room to be.

Before revamp:

It wasn't actually that messy, this is taken when I was packing a parts of my cupboard. Haha, and I'm not lying!

Messy, disorganised, bags, lecture notes, plastic bags all around

My bed

Amount of junks which I threw, and no, my macbook isnt in the box of course, that's just an empty box.

After revamp:

I repainted my room to light grey, I know it looks white. With the help of sokgin, we managed to finish painting my room within 4-5 hours. All thanks to her! I couldn't imagine if I would to do that myself. I was actually feeling fainty after that. Oh! And for the mirror, I'm gonna get it hang up. Problem now is, I need someone to help me drill in the mirror onto the wall.

Got a help from a friend to help me assemble the shelves for my desk and spray paint on my mirror. Its aluminum in color but I thought its ugly thus, I bought a spray paint and give it a new coat of black.

I purchased this desk from Ikea. Initially, I merely bought the desk alone and not the shelf. But I decided to get it later as I felt that I need more storage area.

Bodycare and Skincare collection which I think I have to change soon as I'm aging! The cold hard truth, time to invest on anti-aging products.

And I cleared my wardrobe too!

Here are some of the clothes I sorted out which are either brand new or worn once/twice. I'm thinking of organising a flea and sell it cheap? After my exam perhaps.

And here's where I hang my necklaces!

So basically, the cost of my revamp are:

I believe the above stuffs I got cost less than $100. A primer is needed if you want to paint your wall to a lighter shade. This is so that you do not need to paint your wall too many times. I suppose, I painted my wall with a coat of primer and 3 coats of paint. If you want to be neat in your work, you would need to tape around the corners of your room too! I did that as I'm rather clumsy, and I want to be as neat as possible! I'm secretly a perfectionist actually.

For the desk, shelves and chair,  it costs $119, $59 and $25 respectively. All from Ikea.

Mirror from Ikea too, and that costs $69. Delivery charge and Assembly fees at Ikea cost $85 in Total. Btw, the green mattress that is reflected allow me to allow anyone to stayover! Though, it never happens before. I don't invite any of my friends over, but I think its good to stay prepared, just in case.

Thus, the total cost of my room revamp is less than $500! I change my mattress too as its old. I believe I purchased it from Courts at around $300. Initially, my plan was to get a double bed, but the thought of dis-ambling the entire bed and sharing bed with my sister? Haha, forget it! 

So yea, it can be seen a thing about me. I like to contemplate alot! But once I set my mind to do onto something, I will make sure I do it well. The room isn't exactly what my ideal bedroom to be like as I have restrictions of my large bed and built-in wardrobe. But I'm satisfied with the result! At least its neat and my room looks well-lighted now. But in an area for which no one could see, it has been labelled as Junkyard by someone! Oops! Haha. I will clear that soon, I promise! 

Thoughts

If you grow up the type of woman men want to look at,
you can let them look at you. But do not mistake eyes for hands.

Or windows.
Or mirrors.

Let them see what a woman looks like.
They may not have ever seen one before.

If you grow up the type of woman men want to touch,
you can let them touch you.

Sometimes it is not you they are reaching for.
Sometimes it is a bottle. A door. A sandwich. A Pulitzer. Another woman.

But their hands found you first. Do not mistake yourself for a guardian.
Or a muse. Or a promise. Or a victim. Or a snack.

You are a woman. Skin and bones. Veins and nerves. Hair and sweat.
You are not made of metaphors. Not apologies. Not excuses.

If you grow up the type of woman men want to hold,
you can let them hold you.

All day they practice keeping their bodies upright--
even after all this evolving, it still feels unnatural, still strains the muscles,

holds firm the arms and spine. Only some men will want to learn
what it feels like to curl themselves into a question mark around you,

admit they do not have the answers
they thought they would have by now;

some men will want to hold you like The Answer.
You are not The Answer.

You are not the problem. You are not the poem
or the punchline or the riddle or the joke.

Woman. If you grow up the type men want to love,
You can let them love you.

Being loved is not the same thing as loving.
When you fall in love, it is discovering the ocean

after years of puddle jumping. It is realizing you have hands.
It is reaching for the tightrope when the crowds have all gone home.

Do not spend time wondering if you are the type of woman
men will hurt. If he leaves you with a car alarm heart, you learn to sing along.

It is hard to stop loving the ocean. Even after it has left you gasping, salty.
Forgive yourself for the decisions you have made, the ones you still call

mistakes when you tuck them in at night. 

Know this, you are the type of woman who is searching for a place to call yours.

Let the statues crumble.
You have always been the place.

You are a woman who can build it yourself.
You were born to build

Thoughts

"And in my dreams, I meet the ghosts of all the people who have come and gone 

Memories, they seem to show up so quick but they leave you far too soon

Now evil is just staring at the barrel of the gun"