Questions?

2010 is coming to an end pretty soon. Any questions posed to me? I'm gonna break free my heart and answer those questions truthfully. Yea, No lies at all! Hahaha. That asides, I'm coming up with a confession post before the year ends. Some stuffs that i will confess to. But don't bother asking me who it involved. My lips remains sealed! And yea, no grievance, no hatred about those incidents. I swear!

So here you go:

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Confession of 2010

Gonna do a recap of the year 2010. I would say this year hasn't been a really fantastic year due to my last semester of poly, relationships, stress etc... This post will be a confession post! And yes, I do appear to be mysterious, I admit! There are reasons to that! I don't open up to people easily unless the word Trust is Mutual ( I firmly believe that it isn't easy to find one!)

But i did found a trusty friend in the beginning of the year. Lets name that person F. I would say i wasn't really close to F in the first place! But slowly i was forced to as its seriously terrible not having someone to confide to when things/people are going against you. It all started from a secret between these 2 friends. They might think that i'm totally clueless to the matter. But in actual fact, I'm not! I just don't want to make things awkward between us. Another reason is, i couldn't make myself to believe the FACT! Thats not the end! Slowly, it involved in more problems. It's definitely not easy to write this down. So please bear with me. 1 of my friend dislike me being close with this guy? Hey, there's really nothing going on between us alright. I'm just treating him as a brother, Fullstop! And yea, F became my listening ears and I soon became F's too! But guess what, these 2 friends of mine dislike F. Thus, I'm became a middle person! Its neither here or there! I totally hate to be caught in between! I could sense the dislike of my friends through the tension, expression etc. Its been a torturous period i would say!

What happen to F now, if you are curious? We haven't been contacting much as its not easy for us to continue on with this status. F is really truthful to me in telling me every aspects. But that might not be totally good! Yea, feelings grew. But timing isn't right! I seriously appreciate the presence of F. Thank you so much! And no, I'm no longer lamenting about the stuffs that happened between my 2 friends. I admit, I was kind of furious about it in the first place! But hey, I'm a human. Who could have such good character to withstand that?


In the later part of the year, I entered into a different environment. Initially, I thought i could safely pass through these few months peacefully! But hell NO! I met this person (M). I'm definitely not someone who is sociable in the sense as- if you don't talk to me, I won't speak a word to you. Alright, an introvert in fact! So M was really passionate in the first place. The presence of M in this new environment was totally a Plus! Slowly, I became to see M true color. M's passionate level dies off and I began to feel weird thus I made a move. Now, I'm starting to wonder if the absence was a conspiracy. Waiting for me to take on the bait? Or have i stupidly offer myself? Alright, I have to admit! Everyone has the capability to feel how truthful the person would be. Be it on the words uttered or the person heart etc. Whenever, I'm in doubt, those sweet words always managed to diminish how awful M has been. Foolish, you would call. Indeed! The only plus point about M is that M doesn't like to pressurize me. Which is a good thing! But I slowly came to realise that this isn't healthy at all! I shouldn't be the one giving in and be treated as a spare key. Someone who's always there when you needed? I don't quite think I'm that not worthy!

No initiative taken, no assurance, promises not fulfilled... What's the point of hanging on then? I'm willing to give all I could but only to the right person. Right refers to someone who is appreciative, mutual, doesn't treat me as a spare! So, I guess that was it!

I’ve grown so tired that I don’t even bother to assume anymore.

Dad's 55th

It's dad's birthday, Today, on Christmas eve! But I've fallen sick. I guessed i caught the flu bug from one of my colleagues. And i don't think i'm escaping from fever either. Plus sore throat! Indeed, what a year to end 2010! I hate falling ill, especially during the holidays. It seems that my immune system doesn't appear to be as good as what I suppose to be. Hm...

Anyway, I seriously hate getting gifts for my parents. I have completely no idea what to buy! So, in the end, i decided to prepare a dinner for my family members.

Stir-fried egg with tomato


Salted egg yolk with prawns


Chicken w sausage soup


And my dad's favourite pandan cake!

 
The picture on the right, was taken 2 years back! Gosh! I realised I haven't took a proper picture with dad since!

Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone! Though mine isn't gonna be a fantastic one. Enjoy the last few moments of the year (:

Kris's 21st!

Last week, I attended Kristal's birthday dinner at Wala Wala. The ambiance, food are great as usual! As you know, Wala never allows reservation to be done. But Kristal's dad knew the boss of Wala and hence, we secured ourselves 2 big tables!

Thanks Kris for the awesome treat and hope you love our gift, lovely!

Wala has the most awesome band over there! Definitely my next favourite bar to be at (:

I'm gonna Quit

Feeling sick! And gosh! The feeling is terrible. Whats worst, i have no idea what is causing that. Is it because of the alcohol yesterday? I admit i drank a bit way too much with Kristal especially. The boss of Wala Wala is really nice. He opened 3 bottles of Champagne for us to indulge in (:

Geez! Its annoying not to know whats causing the awful-ness. My tummy doesn't really feel that good. Gonna head to bed in a while time, hopefully I will recover the very next morning.

Really cute looking Milk chocolate candy! (: Thanks Kris!

Something about me! I just realised i can't resist the temptation of drinking. Whether its of beer, red wine, hard liquor... Practically just any alcohol! This won't do! I'm definitely not a drinker. Not someone who has high resistance but I just love the kick alcohol brings to me. High-ness? Yea! Haha, but surely not the aftermath effect urh! That includes unable to fall asleep, nausea, headache.

Alright, resolution for the year 2011! I'm gonna start to limit my intake for alcohol. Hopefully, to stay alcohol-free! I mean it though! Haha

First Peek to Uni

I went to the induction and enrolment session yesterday at SIM. Seriously, theres this sense of regret coming within me. Business Management, is that what i really want? And it seems like i'm different from the rest of the students. They checked out their classes, timetable, orientation dates etc. Whereas for me, i didn't knew that was out on the website! I was flabbergasted in fact! Whats more! I didnt knew that RMIT is more of project-based! Seriously, i prefer examination based modules. Not because i'm anti-social but its just that its not easy to work with other to present a piece of work. Y'know!

And school is starting in less that 3 weeks time! I think my timetable is pretty alright beside for friday class. I gonna head to school in the late afternoon! Gosh! Why arent I grouped in the other group. I rather have Friday off as compared to be off on Tuesday!

Thoughts

I have no idea why, there's this sudden surge of emotions growing within me.

Snapshots of 2010

Gosh! Its already the mid of December! Which means school is starting real soon for me. Somehow i longed for more time for me to laze around. And indeed, its confirmed! I've got accepted to RMIT Business Management course. So, it will be another 3 years for me to remain as a student! It sure is better than working life urh.

Anyway, for this past year, I had got massive amount of photos that are not uploaded. Since I had been slacking that much, I'm gonna upload it now.

 

I have no idea why! While browsing through all these photos, it makes me feel that I'd aged ALOT! Is it because I've lost touched of studies? Nah, i think its because I'm already 21! Geez! If only time could comes to a stand still urh! I dont mind to be forever 20!

He's just not the One!

Came across this blog where this blogger listed out some of the signs which i had to admit, Its TRUE! All this while, i know that. Its just that i simply goes soft on someone who is exceptionally sweet to me. And bear in mind, it took me just few words to make me feels giddy! It makes me feels so xiao meimei! Haha

Don't you find it exceptionally annoying when someone do not know how to label a relationship? To me, isn't that contradicting? How can you not know what it meant to you? I suppose thats your way of dodging?

Signs that i realised he's just not the right one:

1. My INTUITION

2. He's too BUSY for me
He's always busy in making plans for himself but when it comes to me, it felt sort of like a leftover. Perhaps he's only meeting when its convenience!

3. I don't MISS him
I have to admit, I dont fall that deep (which i should feel glad!) Seriously speaking, I dont miss him FONDLY. Ever since we first met, we seems to meet up with each other like once in a month?

4. He SAYS he's not ready to commit
Perhaps, he had a bad relationships with his exs, or maybe he might be hurt before. If he's said he's not ready, he's definitely not the ONE! I wouldnt want to wait till he found the girl he suddenly wants to be with.

5. He's MYSTERIOUS
He doesn't talk really much about himself.

6. I don't feel a SPARK
You know in the fairytale stories or drama series how the couple lived happily after. I feel that when i'm truly with the right one, there will be an unexplained surge of happiness or i will get butterflies!

7. ACTIONLESS
 I strongly believe Actions speaks louder than Words urh!

Thats just random thoughts of mine when i'm rotting at home. I actually like to be left alone at times to sort out my thinking. So, yea!

Stella's 21st

So, a couple of days back, the few of us (secondary school girls) headed over to Palais PS cafe to celebrate stella's big 21st! And guess what? Most of us were lost as we had no idea where forum gallery is located. Getting lost in town!! Yea, indeed. Thats makes me wonder are we truly Singaporeans? But there are still lots of places i have not been to! Yea, take for example, the tampines mall, amk hub, the purple line areas....

Anyway, its not easy for Kailin and I to breeze through the rain and lightning! We were screaming while sharing the umbrella! Haha!

The birthday girl!


My chicken in the basket! And its way too much for me!






Polaroids!


 

After the dinner at Palais, we headed over to Harry's for a drink. Thanks Stella for the treat (: And i realised something, just a cup of beer is sufficient for me to sleep WELL. So, i should stick to that so as to prevent me from having a sleepless night! And yea, thats me all flushed after liquor! Disgusting right! Its like so red and yucks!