Thoughts

"And in my dreams, I meet the ghosts of all the people who have come and gone 

Memories, they seem to show up so quick but they leave you far too soon

Now evil is just staring at the barrel of the gun"

 

Home for the past days

For the past days, my house has been bustling with people. Not a great sight for which I like to see as the noise level is seriously beyond my limit. To add on, I've been acting like a secretary when I'm at home. I would do things like picking up calls, filling up the other party with details, entertaining others etc. This is really nonsensical! Half a day is my limit and that's the reason why I've been 'escaping' so much for the past days. Luckily for me, this scene has cease.

The above photos are actually my relative of 1 family! Clearly speaking, my house is a little too small for that. Can you imagine the crowd during CNY now? 

 Just for laugh. Fascinated by how the rubberband ought to be hook for now. Haha

September is ending and in a blink, it's gonna be my birthday next week. Nothing much fanciful I expect them to be, just a normal chillax dinner with my friends. But, there won't be as much celebrations as compared to the previous as a few of my friends are residing abroad now. Well, there's nothing much to rejoice about getting a year older too isn't it? Many have asked what I wish to receive as a gift as they mentioned that I don't seems to lack of anything. Haha. Its the thoughts that count. I would adore anything that are given. An additional handwritten card would be a bonus though. Anyway, my clique has decided to get me Chanel eau tendre again! They actually got me that perfume 3 years back when my sister broke mine. And now, they have to get it for me again as someone as of a guest to my house stole mine! Ya, we invited a wolf to our house. Oh well. They actually thought the perfume was perhaps not meant for me and wanted to get me a Chanel ear studs instead but I declined. I wanted the studs but I could purchase it on my own if I want to. Further, that isn't a necessity. I wouldn't want my friends to spend so much on just a present for me.

Alright, 2 more weeks of school left till study break. I'm guessing that I would miss school life when I step in the workforce. Freedom. That could be what I would miss the most! I'm hoping to be able to plan for more getaways or staycation session with my love ones before my arduous journey begins. Till then.

My phone

Shagged! Thats what I can conclude of my last weekend. This makes me wonder how can anyone stay up till wee hours almost every Friday and Saturday? Further when one has to work on the weekdays? It so tiring. Just too much for my body to take to turn in at 6am and sleep for mere 7 hours, 2 consecutive days straight. Gawd! I have to admit I'm too old for this. I literally drop dead on Sunday after I reaches home at night, right after my dinner and bath. Still, I feel I didn't have enough rest. Gonna turn in in abits after this post. 

Anyway, back on tracks. I went out with my mum during the afternoon today and the following are the conversation:

Mum: Don't you think its time to change? (pointing to my phone)
Me: Urh? You wanna me to change my phone to 5s? (feeling bewildered thinking what's wrong with my mum today, to be so generous as of no reason to buy me a phone? Haha)
Mum: I meant your cover! You see, it's so dirty and torn. It makes your phone looks so old!
Me: Ahh. Is there really a need for me to do so?
Mum: She nods her head

Btw, I bought my 4s on my own, and if I would to get a new phone, I would get it on my own too! Haha, unless my parents stroke lottery or something, I won't ask them to get me a phone.

 Haha, is it really bad? Can you still spot the leopard prints on my cover?

Alright, this perhaps is born within me. I'm actually rather stubborn boring lazy ok, a little of each of the strikeoff words. Unlike others, I don't see a need to change cover everytime, 1 is just enough isn't it? I only have a phone! Boring, you can called it, this can be seen in my life too. I would never get sick of my favoritest stuffs; food, people etc. If you think, I'm easy to please, haha, think again. For food for which I think its average, it takes me a couple of time (once every week) for me to get sick of it. My parents are a classic example. They kept bringing me to DTF, Crystal Jade, Sakura that I get so sick of it! And Sok gin is another one who likes to bring me to have Bugis steamboat during secondary school days that I never step into that stall since then. Its actually pretty hard to find my favoritest food. I couldn't name much of my favoritest restaurants if you want me to. Next for my favoritest people, they are actually the one whom I would bug, share my most updated news with, my family problem, joy and sadness with. There are just a handful of my favoritest people, but I think its sufficient. I'm glad for their presence; a couple would even drop off everything they have and meet me. Feel really blessed for them!

 

So, a new cover for myself? Nah, I would use back my first mercury cover I got for my phone before I purchased my pink cover from HK. Haha. Oh well! 

Thoughts

"This is falling in love in the cruelest way, 

This is falling in for you and you are worlds away"

Thoughts

"Come on, skinny love what happened here? 

Suckle on the hope in light brassieres 

Sullen, load is full, so slow on the spit"

Lies

Sometimes, I wonder why is there a need for one to lie when I see no point of doing that.The funny thing is, there is no duress implemented on my part at all. Not that I often suppress people, I don't, by the way! You are the one who agreed on your own wills. Further, you offered me the offer and what I did was merely accepted your invitation. Its just upsetting to see someone so close to you lie through their teeth. And this isn't the first occurance! Trust? Just how much can I trust that person now? It's definitely not easy. The thought of thinking all the words that came out are all bullshits, excuses blah blah. Isn't it tiring to wear different masks when you are out to meet different groups of people? Just the thought of it is mentally draining enough for me. Perfunctory, thats something I need to master. I know of a particular one who does it really well. Perhaps, this is an easier way out so as not to disappoint. Indeed. But actions, behavior and time do reveal your thoughts afterall isn't it? Gawd. Enough said! Just how did I link two different person together?

And why am I so angsty? Perhaps I had a bad day today. My day didn't starts right, from the start. Waking up early, editing my report, got my lunch packed and ate it at a bus stop (as I was rushing for time, my first and definitely my last! Can you imagine how weird it is to hold your box of beehoon and wolfing it down at the bus stop for fear the bus would arrive any minute), gotten mosquito bites at awkward areas, bruises from no idea where, got my skin cut by a therapist (it bleeds, and to the nerve of her to ask me if its painful?). Oh well, at least something turns out Right now. I just finishes my report! Yay! Gonna have it turnitin tomorrow and printed and I'm done! :)

Ignore my brother at the back. Headed over to Starbucks to do my assignment just yesterday, alone.

Loving the tranquility

Selfies

So I've been very very busy and stressed out. Currently, I'm rushing my Strategic Management assignment. Though its done in pairs, but the work load for this assignment is seriously overwhelming. Its like we are analyzing the entire company with just a few days left before its due. Okay, blame it on ourselves, for starting it late and right now, we are rushing it out like mad. There's major editing to be done too as we overshot the word limits by too much.

Enough of grumblings. I'm taking a break from it now. Here are some pictures (mostly selfies), from the past couple of weeks.

Heading to school on a rainy afternoon

Chill out at Wala with a guy who ordered cider for himself. Can he gets anything more serious than that?! But after he finishes his cider, he ordered himself a pint of kronenbourg blanc. Thats like so much better, cider to me is just apple juice. Major de-stress therapy needed after my assignment.

I can't wait to get my assignment done and be over with it. Monday, I'm counting down to that! By right, I should get everything done before Sunday, so yes, can't wait till Sunday. Need a breather from school. 2nd semester always passes so much faster than the 1st. And I have 1 more month of school left till my study break. Gawd!

Thoughts

"When I don't know what to say, don't know what to do 

Don't know if it really even matters to you 

How can I make you see? It matters to me"

Bakes

My mum finally got me an oven and here's are what I had made thus far. I prepared most of them for my friends to show they have been loved too! (haha, okay that's some insiders' joke) I like to bake when I'm free at home for others; my love ones and friends as my parents doesn't fancy baked stuffs. Plus, I don't like to eat the stuffs I made. Okay, I'm weird. I just love preparing food for them and I'm glad that they love it and appreciate my effort for that.

 My basic equipments for baking

 And here are some of the ingredients I used

My first bake

Red velvet cookies preparing to be bake

Choco cake (With flour, alright another insider's joke)

Fruit tarts

 Shepard's pie

Mac & Cheese

Breakfast on a rare day (I don't normally wake up that early): Cheese omlette on toasts with a handful of grapes

Carbonara

Pizza waiting to be bake. The last time I baked this was 3 years back, when I was teaching in Woodgrove. How time flies! Of course, this recipe is with modification.

Hawaiian pizza: Topped with blackforest ham, pineapples and loads of mozzarella, parmesan and cheddar cheese 

Brownies

Dust with some ugly symbols, I know

Delivery made, I must be too free (actually, not exactly, I'm fighting against time now!)

A close encounter to the... Hospital

Yesterday, I was out doing some personal grooming with Sok gin at Holland V. After which, we headed over to Daily scoop to have ice cream on brownie. Okay, it was only me who was eating as I had a craving. I could never ever resist vanilla ice-cream! It was 630pm then and I had yet to have my dinner as I was planning to head back home to have it. We decided to walk to Star Vista after the ice-cream as I want to get some items from a shop. I only walked half a bus stop worth of distance and I felt something was not right with my body. There was a discomfort at my abdominal area which I couldn't explain. Thus I asked to rest at the bus stop. And the pain got worst! I knew I needed a larger surface area for me to rest so I forced myself to head down to a voideck at a HDB just behind. I tried to sit down as per told by Sok Gin (she's a nurse). But the pain just got worst. I was aching so badly that I actually lied down flat on the bench. I was terribly in pain. It was so bad that Sok Gin wanted to call a cab for me to send me to my family doctor at Clementi as I couldn't even sit up straight. She even wanted to call an ambulance for me. But I declined. I'm strong-headed, I know. The pain level was 10/10, considering I have a high threshold of pain. No words could describe how bad the pain was. Sok Gin was lost, she tried conversing with me but I could utter no words with her. Finally, she persuaded me to get onto a cab to visit a clinic. She went to get a cab but was told by a cabbie the nearest clinic was just a street away. She came back to me and asked of me to force myself to walk there. I curled up my body and laid on my side. The pain seemed to ease and I gave her a signal to tell her to give me abit more time to rest. The sharp pain lasted for half an hour. I was feeling better after which. Not totally of no pain, but the pain level was reduced to a 2/10. 

I have no idea what's the cause to that. Initially, I thought I suffered from appendicitis, but according to Sok Gin, it doesn't prove to be likewise. Could it be the brownie ice-cream I was having? Or could there be something wrong with my health? It was the first occurrence thus I thought nothing of it. I popped in 2 panadols and turned in early last night. I didn't went to see a doctor as I felt a lot better today. Totally Well, No pain at all. I could even had headed to school today. Seriously, I had gotten myself up at 8am. But I didn't went to school in the end as it was raining so heavily in the morning! Haha. Couldn't imagine myself getting admitted into a hospital yesterday. Yucks! But well, the pain only lasted for half an hour. I counted myself lucky for that. Hopefully, there's no re-occurrence. Crossing my fingers hard.* But everything seems well now. Feeling blessed. 

Thoughts

"So wake me up when it's all over, when I'm older and when I'm wiser 

All these time I was finding myself and I didn't know I was lost"