Thoughts

"If our love is tragedy why are you my reality

If our love's insanity why are you my clarity" 

M hotel

Took quite a while to have this post posted. I'm just so lazy to plug in the USB cable to my lappy and get those colours adjusted. I'm really a Lazy person! It actually takes me quite a while to get things done, it always towards the last minute till I feel the anxiousness that I need to have it settled. Just like sitting for exam. I'm not gonna stereotype other students but talking about me myself. Just a few days before my exam, I felt like there's a need for me to be transform to a superwoman. I had to use 3 or 4 days to study the whole module which took like 4 months for the lecturer to finish it through? Till then was the only time I touched my notes other than working on my assignments. Then something stroke me; Its necessary for me to get a textbook for my lecture notes are totally useless! Gawd! I didn't got the book in the end as I was already having my study break and I'm Lazy to head down to school ( its just 20 minutes away from my place) to get the book for which I'm gonna touch for 3 days? And it cost nearly 80 bucks for that? It just not worth it. I'm hoping I could just clear my modules. Papers weren't easy. Couldn't complain too much as I have myself to blame. I didn't have time to complete the whole chapters.

Anyway, enough of ramblings about school. Dated a month back post. Back then, I was kind of stressed out with my piles of assignments and would wanna get a break after I had those completed and thus, I had a short staycation at M hotel.

A free room upgrade from Delux to Club Delux. Not of any differences to me as there's no extra privileges you would receive. They just gave me a higher floor, thats all.

Desert wine. My first and would be my last time trying. Its really far too sweet for my liking.

This is totally random, but I would really love to have a small couch in my room! Haha

As a four star rated hotel, I think overall its not too bad. Staffs were rather friendly, we wanted to borrow the wine opener from the restaurant initially but a staff offered to make his way to our room and helped us with it. Which is awesome! Food wise, we missed out the breakfast as we overslept. Hm, but its okay. The variety of food wasn't that much of a selection to begin with. Further, someone's dreamt of us having burgers together! Haha, thus we had our lunch settled at Mac! We made it a dream come true yea! Haha. Simply heart mini retreat like this. Not forgetting my favoritest companion too- Just so Perfect! :)

Thoughts

"There is no fear in love

But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment

The one who fears is not made perfect in love"

More rantings

For the past week, I merely had a day where I had sufficient sleep; sufficient as in the sense that I would not constantly wake up and look at my phone and check for timing, worrying that I would not wake up on time for something. Its just pure insane! And I wonder if age does a part or am I getting sick of studying, I had no motivation to push myself through this year. I get so restless just purely staring at my notes and what happens next would be... I would give in and let my mind drifts to wherever or whoever. Goodness! I'm so unproductive compared to the past! I remembered I could memorize words for words during my Secondary exams in particularly Social Studies structured question. And my friends would get so amazed by me. Now? Barely a page and I feel that I used up all my storage in my brain.

But when I have nothing to do, or while waiting my time to past till my next activity, I would get bored. Which explains the below shots which were taken a couple of weeks ago.

My hair isn't perceived to be as long as what it seems to be. It super layered and could get really messy when I wake up. When I feel its the right time, I will get it snapped short. Ya, SHORT! Perhaps its gonna be towards to the end of the year or something. 

Anyway, I was blogging on my previous posts on how much I detest to wait for queues, people, transports. That goes to the extent of social network as well. If one is caught up or busy, it would be nice to text back or return me with a call that he or she is busy and would get back to me later. The worst thing that one could do is to totally ignore or 'forgotten' about the text or calls made. How much time would that take to reply the calls or texts? And when they say they will get back to me later, I'm actually expecting the person to mean it. Not just for the sake of saying. I could be waiting for that call or text. Its not always nice to keep one in anticipation don't you agree? Speaking of which, I hate this the most! If one cant deliver his or her words, then one shouldn't made promises if you can't fulfill it. Alright, I think I had enough of rantings. Its been a long day for me. To the extent that my phone battery went flat even I could call it a day. Gotten head to bed now for a good rest. Till then.

Who's back?

A year flew by just like that and Joffre is back in town. Time past really fast, in my memory it seems not quite long ago that I last sent him to the airport. Anyway, its a good thing to see familiar faces. And this guy had been asking me to plan a sukiya-ya outing ever since we had the last one back in December last year. So, this time round, I met him and Sok Gin up on Thursday and we had Suki-ya for lunch again to satisfy his cravings.

Our first round of food

In total we had 10 plates of pork, 6 plates of beef, 4 plates of chicken and loads of golden mushrooms! And this funny guy, kept asking me to eat more saying 'you know, guys don't fancy too skinny girls, so eat more!' Haha. And in the end, we cleared all the food we took, great teamwork we had! Hahaha.

A group picture missing Jerry out who is enjoying his life at Canberra

And that's me before lunch. Just finished my dental and I'm glad that I do not need to put a metal plate on my teeth for the moment.

I'm so drained out this weekend; not only had I helped out with my parents on Saturday but I also had a couple of sleep just before that as I was accompanying a friend of mine. And yesterday, I had quite a tough night sleeping too as my brain was occupied with thoughts. Sometimes, I just need an assurance and I feel so guy-ish in this area, taking care and would only be reassured till confirmation is given to me. Gawd! But that only applies to a specific Individual only. I only managed to turn in at 4+am and woke up at 7+am. I'm seriously lacking of sleep! Got to head to bed now and I do hope I could wake up with a complete nice rest.

Thoughts

"The feelings got lost in my lungs, they are burning, 

I'd rather be numb and there's no one else to blame"

Mass gaining

Perhaps this post is gonna cause outrage on a few of my friends but, I'm on an aim to gain a couple of kgs now. Reason? I'm being complained to be too skinny. Haha, I hadn't been paying much attention till a particular one pinpoint that to me. And then I came to realise that I lost a fair bits of weight (on my upper body especially) and that is good in a way because now, I can finally have a flat tummy even after a full meal. But in certain areas that it shouldn't be losing, it became flatter. That on the other hand, isn't what I want. Especially when I don't have that good criteria in the beginning. To add on, currently, my BMI is 16.7 and that is below the ideal 18.5. I'm on a risk of nutriton deficiency and osteoporosis. However, not to worry, I wasn't on a deliberate attempt to lose weight previously; I haven't restrict my diet or whatsoever. Its just that I change my lifestyle to be of slightly healthier. Anyone interested to know how I achieve that? Haha.

Anyway, to build on some mass, I have been preparing supper for myself. I love to cook for just my love ones only (which I still am) and actually loathe the idea of cooking for just myself as I find it too troublesome. But ya, I'm gonna try cooking supper for myself these days and see if it works.

Prawn Aglio Olio

Ham & Mushroom Spaghetti

Spaghetti Bolognese

Cheesy Baked Potatoes

If you realise, I love to cook pasta as its fussle-free and simple to prepare. Supper to me should be easy to prepare and simple to cook as I wouldn't want to spend too much of my time whipping something out in the kitchen just to satisfy my tummy only. I would rather prepare spend those extra time preparing something for my love ones. That actually makes me happier just by looking at them finishing the food I prepared for them.

And this is me after a full set of meal at Ichiban sushi (appetizers, main and fruits). I must say I'm pretty amazed by how much a change in lifestyle could do to one's body.

And the back view

If only I could shed some fats on my cheeks which seems so impossible unless I undergo plastic or do some botox, fillers or whatsoever. It just hard for me, I guess part of the reason is because of my facial structure :(

And some times back, my mum actually bought some weight gaining powder from GNC for my sis and I. Funny isnt it? But I haven't took a single mouth of it as I was warned by someone of the side effect. I'm so glad he came to inform me on that. Phew! So now, just natural way for me to gain weight to be healthier and hopefully retain the tummy I currently possess.

Thoughts

"I walk in circles but I'll never figure out, what I mean to you, do I belong 

I try to fight this but I know I'm not that strong and I feel so helpless here

Watch my eyes are filled with fear, tell me do you feel the same

Hold me in your arms again"

 

Dinner with the girlies

Absolutely adore it when we takes 3,4 hours off our time and gather together. Be it dinner, tea, desert or whatsoever. Simply heart the short gathering where we fill each others with parts and parcels of our life.

 The only picture we took with my secondary school girls. Love it how easy for us to arrange to meet when we all stay around the area thus we have no problem choosing locations to meet. But we usually meet up at either Town area or Holland V. Fussle-free for all of us.

Thoughts:
I had been triggered with lots of thoughts and gone through with lots of emotions these couple of weeks. I'm not as tough as most would seen I am but I'm just more reserved with opening my emotions to others. Sometimes, I do wish for someone Special to chase my blues away. Simple act of service or gift or even text would do as fine. It all comes to the point of attention and concern I would want to yearn without having to create it by myself. Am I easy or tough to please? I would say easy for the Right person and tough for the Wrong one as I would get easily annoyed by the little acts they do.

Yoshimaru Ramen Bar

I headed over to Holland V to have dinner with my poly clique  last week and we tried Yoshimaru Ramen Bar. The restaurant has been there for quite a while but I only managed to try it now. In my opinion, I think this is better than Ippudo and the best thing is that you don't have to queue for that long during dinner hours.

Authentic ramen store as you can find the outlets in Japan

Cozy interior design

A bowl of sesame seeds is provided with each ramen ordered. You can grind as to how fine you would want them to be.

The ramen set which comes with a salad, a side dish and a drink

Traditional Hakata Ramen

Spicy Cha Shu Ramen

Something random, my hair color is surviving quite well. I could still see the tinge of red. Not too bad. However, this gonna makes my next hair dye job harder to achieve the color I wanna next. Yes, I had already decided what color I want for my hair. It's gonna be lighter shade for me for my next salon visit. 

And I have lesson early in the morning the next day. That means that I have to wake up earlier than most who are working. Shall head to bed now if not I surely gonna regret the next day. Till then! 

Thoughts

"Not because of who I am, but because of what you've done 

Not because of what I've done, but because of who you are"