If I matters?

I'm actually really lazy to blog. This week is gonna be really scary! Not sharing it with most, guess the one who cares will find out eventually. O, just a fact about me. Never Never back out the last minute, i meant the eleventh hour! It totally sucks especially when I had made planning for you and by backing out screwed up every bits of my plan. Please, I really hate seeing my plan ruined. To the furthest extent, yes, I just break down. It just makes me ponder; 'Do I not least at all matters?' I think I'm trained to be thick skinned- To a specific person. I'm around the vicinity whenever its needed. But sometimes, one gotta know, it you keeps pushing me away, eventually I will just stay away.

Had a celebration in town yesterday for Stella's 22nd!

Dinner at Pique Nique was pretty awesome. Because the restaurant doesn't allow us to cut the cake we bought, we headed off to the next location: Gusttimo.

Challenge was to gulp down a cup of beer and 10 shots in 60 seconds.

O, and a random fact about me! I really love seeing my friend get High! It makes me happy! Haha, weird me! I think i can very well entertain High people!

Thoughts

"When you came to realise its about time, move on and Dwell no more. Its easy to say, definitely hard to perform. What could be done is to trust/train your brain. Listen/act less to what your heart says. Because thats where all the heartbreaks and tears occur. "

Thoughts

"To reach out is to risk exposing feelings of your true self, to cry is to risk appearing emotional, to laugh is to risk acting like a fool.

To love is to risk not being love in return and to hope is to risk despair."

These few days hadn’t been that fantastic. I’d been shunning away from the social world. What I yearn for is just tranquility. I need a time that I could call ‘my own’ to keep my thoughts running. Truth to say, my brain hasn’t been functioning properly all these while. I just can’t THINK that well. Gullible? I would see myself as plain dumb instead. 
Its NEVER an easy task to make me talk to anyone about my problem. Trust isn’t that easy to gain afterall. I wouldn’t know if the person is genuinely concern or is just curious. There are times, I would really want someone to be there. I mean PHYSICALLY there. Not through social network or by mobile. Perhaps, some would think that mobile is the best substitute for appearance?

There are 5 different types of LOVE language and i did a simple quiz to find out mine. My main love language is Quality Time and Physical Touch. I wouldn't mind forking/sacrificing my time to be there for someone that matters, thats for sure. It really sucks when your love isn't reciprocate in the same way you expect. However, every individual is different, you can't command everyone to behave in the same way as you are. Thus, its really important to find out the Love Language of the other and understand from there. For me, Actions definitely speaks louder than words. Thats the reason why i score the least in Words of Affirmation.

Quality Time

In Quality Time, nothing says “I love you” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed activities, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful.

Physical Touch
This language isn't all about the bedroom. A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, holding hands, and thoughtful touches on the arm, shoulder, or face - they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive.

Thoughts

Sick

Been falling sick for the past week. Though flu might sound minor, but its terrible. I couldn't even sleep well during the first few nights when i'm sick. That's because i can't breathe through my nose properly and i have to wake up in the middle of the night blowing my nose. It's so freaking annoying! I should say I'm just lucky perhaps. Falling ill after the exams and those gatherings i had with my friends the previous week. I had been recuperating at home for days and i think it got slightly better now? Beside the headache and cough I'm having? Things just don't stop at 1 urh.

Anyway, found some pictures on my photobucket un-post.

The month of October flew by. November gonna be a month of change. Shan't elaborate any further but just wait and see.

Fairfield girls meet-up

Met up with the secondary school girls a few days back. Short impromptu meetup but its nice when the few of us gather around and chat about our life; working, schooling, relationships. Just anything. Secondary school days were just the Best days of my life. There's no worries or troubles for us to fret on, everyone was so Innocent. What could i say? We have aged!

Anyway, some snapshots on Saturday itself at Alley Bar.

And a couple of photos from photo booth with my sister.

Thoughts

A scar simply means you were stronger than whatever tried to hurt you.

Well-deserved break

A well-deserved break, thats what I need. My body aches really lot! Guess I really had aged! Its gonna be a long weekend ahead. Though it doesn't affect me. I don't even know whats the festive this coming Monday. Oh well! Life of a student indeed. Least said about this period. I think I'm so gonna lose count each days.

Pictures of the past couple of days.

Brought the girls over to Da Paolo Pizza bar at Holland V. And after which, we headed over to Daily Scoop for brownie on ice-cream :)

I met up with Josephine yesterday and we had dinner at Brotzeit Raffles City.

We had beef stew, roasted potato and for the main, we had grilled chicken breast. Gawd! Thats way too much for our tummy!

Caught a movie at Filmgarde- You are the Apple of my eyes! I booked the tickets without knowing its a chinese film! Anyway, its a Taiwanese movie about love life during High School What I could say is that Timing is really important! What's lost would be lost for good!

And afterwhich, we headed for a drinks at Chijmes- Harry's. I had no idea why it doesn't seems like a Friday! The crowds are so quiet. And every friends we asked are stuck at home! Perhaps those working are taking advantage of the long weekend? Think my tummy is getting bigger! I had lots of beer yesterday!

I need some planning right now! Should i go on a holiday during December? But I haven't found anyone who is free or keen yet! Hm...