Entangled

I really don't see myself why I have such a weak heart towards you. Can't figure why I'm able to be so tolerant. You can do the most ridiculous things to be, be the most fucked up jerk without your conscience even ticking you. Perhaps what every single soul feels out there is true, my life revolves around you. Losing control of myself , living in denial , living behind my shadows. I tell myself repeatedly to be firm , to get out of this cycle. But it seems like I got myself more entangled in it halfway through getting out of it. Is this karma...or just fate?

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This is what i chanced upon on a blog (snakesinaplane)! I felt exactly the same way as what she feels too! Can someone please put a stop to such feeling! I dont like myself keep checking on my phone regularly if there is any sms from you, i dont like myself thinking that everytimes my phone vibrate, i wish the sms came from you, i hate myself from taking initiative... This is just not me! I even started to leave my phone one before i sleep just as to get the first news from you; be it to share your burden, entertain you etc. Feelings just grew unknowingly! You arent exactly the one who i will fancy, yet i think i fall from you! Some even see you as a jerk! But why would such feeling be planted in my heart! I'm just suffocating from such immense pain and i couldnt believe that my tears actually fell whenever i think of you! Be it silly or dumb, i'm trapped! It's just so terrible to feel this way! It's this what LOVE is all about?

So, i freed myself in this! I guess i didn't fall as deep as i thought! I need merely a week of time and peace to heal those pains. I think i just treat your presence as a habit! When i return back to my norm, everything will remains unchanged then!

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Avez-vous réalisé que je déteste votre présence avant? Mais les sentiments sont juste dur à contrôler! Récemment, j'ai même découvert que vous avez occupé une place dans mon cœur. À bien y penser, vous ne sont pas exactement celui qui je voulais pour ça! Mais vous ne vous a laissé un énorme impact sur moi (comme maintenant!) Mais, en même temps, je suis volage-minded! Quand le sentiment lentement appauvri, cela signifie tout simplement que ça a disparu!

Do you realised that I loathe your presence before? But feelings are just hard to control! Recently, i even found out that you held a place in my heart. Come to think of it, you are not exactly the one who i wished for! But you sure do left a huge impact on me (as in now!) But, at the same time, i am fickle-minded! When the feeling slowly depleted, it simply means that it just vanished!

March the 19th!

So, i'm gonna do a proper post this time round! Anyway, my family celebrated my mum's birthday on Friday. It was a simple and sleek dinner we had!

The weather during these past few days were really bad! We nearly wanted to drop the idea to head out during to the harsh rainy weather! Anyway, I'm just gonna let the pictures to do the talking (:

Yea! You are right! It's Sakura International Buffet at Clementi Wood!



So, theres a change of the food selection. New items were added! Some were really good! But overall, i feel that their standard drops once again!



Realised something? Yea, i changed back my fringe! I cant stand fringe 'dropping' and touches my eyes! One word- Irritating! Ahahaha



Thats the best picture i can find!



A very 'blur' photo taken by my mum! However, that is far better than what my dad took!



Happy 49th Birthday (:

Ahahah.... she said that her wish was to expect all 3 of us to be very 'guai'! I know sometimes words could be very harsh when we feel angry or irritated! But, I'll try! I think i inherited my mum's temper, seriously! Ahahahaha...

VillaBali

I have been slacking throughout this holiday! And guess what? I seriously need to find for a job as my cash are depleting real soon! Dont you agree that we spent more during the holiday? And the funny thing is that what i spent are not on materialistic stuffs! Its mainly on enjoyment which include movies, dining etc...

Anyway, I joined the few of my classmates over at Villabali. Its located near HP main office!

A well-hidden place!



Actually, VillaBali gave me a resort feel! A pretty nice place to hang out with friends!



The interior!



A really cozy area to chill out!



Its kind of blur! And i could hardly see my eyes! Lol!



Our Drinks! Mine was the one at the extreme left at the second row! Peach Me UP! It seriously perks me up as it tasted just like medicine to me!



Our snacks! It consists of wedges, garlic bread, chicken wings, sausages, breaded prawns and breaded mushrooms!



Justin and Eugene! Seems like i'm forcing Eugene to smile.



With Zoe and Shiyun!

A pity my camera dies one me! Wanted to capture a group picture initially! Seriously, I'm dead bored at home! I should try and find some entertainment for which i could do at home? Ahahaha, or will you peeps entertain me?

Do you believe in Fate? I Do

I'm feeling bored! I got up a few times from my sleep today for no apparent reason. Result will be released on Wednesday. Till then, only will i see what it determine what i want out of my future prospect. It's sort of confirm that i would not want to stop at a Diploma! Frankly speaking, i dont think a diploma will end me anywhere! Only will a Degree, that will makes me feel more assured! Perhaps, some don't agree with this saying, but that is how i feel!

Anyway, i did some Tarot's Reading Once Again...

Card 1 (Wheel Of Fortune) : How you feel about yourself now »

Perhaps you feel due for a bit of good luck or indeed are experiencing some at the moment. The Wheel of Fortune is a card of destiny. What is happening now we could call fate, so if positive things are happening with your love life, career or finances this is no coincidence. If no such things are happening, expect a sudden change in fortune.

Card 2 (Justice) : What you most want at this moment »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is for a fair and right outcome whether it concerns relationships or business affairs. You feel that you are in the right and that any decision or agreement to be made should be in your favour.

Card 3 (The Emperor) : Your fears »

You are feeling that success is just around the corner but it feels elusive, just out of reach. You are concerned that the support and help that you want from your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life won't materialise. Trust and ask for the help you need, and success will be yours.

Card 4 (The Magician) : What is going for you »

If considering any new enterprise or relationship you will find the self-belief, confidence and ingenuity to make it a success. Perhaps a promotion or pay increase at work, or a strong feeling that if you were to choose to work for yourself, you truly believe you can make it work. Go for it!

Card 5 (The Hanged Man) : What is going against you »

You are allowing yourself to be victimised and emotionally blackmailed by others or you're playing the martyr or victim to try and manipulate others. Don't be too materialistic or try and hang onto someone or something for all the wrong reasons. Someone or something has to go, you must find the ability to let go and give this up - don't worry it will turn out for the better for you.

Card 6 (The Fool) : Outcome »

Open your mind and soul to new possibilities this is a time to realise your full potential, follow your instincts and act on your hunches. A time for spontaneity, fun and surprises. However, be mindful of being too impulsive - your decisions should be based on experience and knowledge of self.


Actually, i'm quite confused with the readings! I've no idea what its exactly are pointing to! Anyway, this reading was done just to entertain myself! I'm not going to put that too seriously!

Just some Rantings

I feel kinda of uneasy! I hope that it isnt true! That shouldnt even be the way it should behave! But seriously, who could control that? That is simply one of the HARDEST things for almost every human being to take charge of. Agrh!!! Okay, just leave me here rantings by myself! And dont you agree that what we usually pictured, dont really comes true in this realistic life? Perhaps, those are merely dreams, wishes which are out of our reach! Okay, Forget about it! I wont want to talk about this anymore! So lets nature take its course. If its meant to be, it will be! If not, I hope it can come to a FULLSTOP soon!

Aloha

Part of the girls!



Mahjong Session! Can you actually believe on the first night we started playing from 10pm till next afternoon 2pm! That is like 16 hours worth of mahjong session! Now i doubt no more how could those aunties and uncles sat at the same spot and kept on playing! But seriously, spine and butt are the one who are suffering!

So those Mahjong Kahkis of us slept after our lunch till evening to replenish a few hours of sleep(: After which, we went to seek for some night activities at Downtown!

Guess what? There's a Fish & Co express at Downtown! Its mere $4.50 for a plate of fish and chip and a drink! (smaller portion of course!)

K session! I think its too 'Flashy' in this picture!

Its rather hilarious that the guys and girls actually duet a song together 男人女人.

After which, we went back to chalet! And guess what? We nearly lost a remote control for a fan and that remote cost $32.10? That is so not worth it! Luckily, we managed to find it in the end!

Anyway, after i reached home my parents woke me up after having only mere 2 hours of sleep. They lured me to Bugis to make an offering! The weather was freaking hot and there are even queeues to pray at the temple? Thats one of the rare scene i saw! The temple was filled with over hundreds of followers! Wow!

Anyway, after those praying, i took advantage to have my haircut! Its been 9 months since i last cut my hair. And i was so 'lucky'! I went to Cheers next to the salon to withdraw money as i knew that they dont accept cash! However, the atm could not dispense cash. The person in front of me ask me to go all the way to Raffles medical or is it hospital as there is an atm machine over there! But i told him there are a few ATM located at the Basement of Bugis Junction! He later told me that those machines could not dispense cash as well! Being gullible, i really walked all the way to the hospital! I was so tired that i didnt even realised the traffic turns red and i was still strolling till i see the vehicles started moving! A whole 15 minutes walk i took!

So, thats my new cut! A shorter fringe and a more layered hair!

Oyes! Actually i have a Safety Test on Friday! And Goodness me! I overslept! That is like the very First time i overslept for an examination! I woke up like half an hour after the test started! Not by my own! But my friend called me through my house phone! Thanks god he have my house number!

Shall stop here first! Am seriously tired! After the chalet i realised that i simply never think that i slept enough! Why is that so, do you have any idea?

I'm all Done!

Finished all my examination and that's like finally! But it just feel weird! I don't really feel the sense of jubilation. After my last final exam, the few of us went over to town. JY borrowed the car from her dad and that saved us from walking that much! Thanks a lot!

Anyway, we caught a movie on Thursday. Initially, we were debating on catching either Alice in Wonderland or Dear John. After all those debating, ahahaha...

I'm glad that we catch this! It's a pretty touching show and that seriously touches Zoe and I. Don't you think that the make-up for Alice in Wonderland looks kind of frightening?

I wanted to fall asleep after i reached home but it just feel weird ( Hm... how should i put it? Perhaps i just don't really feel the end of the exam period!) Thus, i made a decision to head down somewhere. Oh well!

Anyway, these few days had been really weird! Perhaps i'm falling real soon!

On a random note, this coming week will be a really busy week for me! Upcoming chalet at Aloha and last Safety test which I opt to take as i have seriously what would be my future prospect!