I've been losing my sleep and I seriously envied those who can fell into deep sleep once they hit their bed. Sadly, I'm definitely not the one unless I'm really tired. Hm... that makes me recalled the days back teaching in Woodgrove which was just last year. Waking up at 530am every weekday is no kidding matter. I vividly remembered that I got to leave my place no later than 615 so as to catch the first train from Dover to Jurong East. And the transport I took to get myself is simply insane (bus>Dover MRT>Switches train at Jurong East>Woodland MRT>bus). Come to think of that, I salute myself for that. Though I'm frequently late for work during the first couple of months but I gave myself self-disciplined and be punctual for work after which.
If there's no activity for me, I could simply fell asleep on my bed when I reaches back home (after bathing, of course! The kitchen reeks on strong buttery smell and it always left a stench on my clothing!). I think I didnt have much difficulty falling asleep even after I took my nap earlier on. And if I went out to meet my friends after class, I could immediately head to my dreamland. That's just simply awesome!
For me, I definitely cant afford to take afternoon nap. That will for sure make me toss about my bed for hours! It's weird I'm blogging about my sleeping pattern isn't it? But I found out that my thoughts are always preoccupied when I'm in bed. Could the cause be due to the sleepless night or could it be simply because I'm un-riddling stuffs(?) I'm unsure of that myself. Could I be seeking explanation of the actions or behaviours of those I never had a chance to ask or get a direct answer? Those thoughts are simply just hallucination that I gave myself e.g What if I did this this this and that... Stuffs I plan to do after critical thinking... It appears to be dumb, I know! I will try to pull myself back as much as I could. They say to "forget you need to rely on an appearance of another 'stranger' "and "its better to leave then to be the one that got left behind"? True? Perhaps it is.
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