Time and tide wait for no one

Not in the mood to feel or react onto about anything at the moment. Joy, Frustrated, Upset? Yes, I've been going through all these. But sadness covers all these whirlwind of emotions I'd gone through. I'm stepping into my mid 20s and the number of times I attended a wake is More than the times I attended weddings. It's saddening to sit in a wake especially so upsetting when the deceased is someone of around my age.

He's gone just like that. My memories of him were only of the past. A age younger than me, both of us being looked after by our grandparents, having weekly stayover at his parents' place when I was in primary school. All these flashbacks kept flashing through my mind. He was my aunt only child. I've yet to visit him till now. I just simply can't bear to picture the reactions of my aunt, uncle, grandparents and other relatives. Its saddening enough to hear the re-account from my mum. She pleaded the doctor to save his only son, but to no avail.  'What would happen to us when we are old?' 'What about our flat?' Those were some sentences my aunt asked.

My grandpa cries his heart out. He just can't believe the fact his grandson is gone just like that. None of us can, he just started off with a good career, earning good money but now... he left us

The baby in my aunt's arms is my cousin while I'm on my uncle's arm. As said, being a year older than him, we mingled quite alot

That's the most recent picture picture I took with him. I believe it was taken when I was 7 then while he was 6.

We planned for a cousin gathering during March but it never happened as its tough to compromise with so many cousins' timing. Regret. That's what I feel. They said life is short. So live it till the fullest. Its only till now I get the true feeling of it. We as human constantly take each other for granted. Thought that the other person would surely be there whenever you need them. Truth is, it doesn't happen this way. You really couldn't control what would happen the next minute. I've learnt through this incident. Say whats on my mind. Do what I need to do. Wait for no time as time waits for no one. WL, you would be missed dearly by all of us.