Sometimes, I wonder why is there a need for one to lie when I see no point of doing that.The funny thing is, there is no duress implemented on my part at all. Not that I often suppress people, I don't, by the way! You are the one who agreed on your own wills. Further, you offered me the offer and what I did was merely accepted your invitation. Its just upsetting to see someone so close to you lie through their teeth. And this isn't the first occurance! Trust? Just how much can I trust that person now? It's definitely not easy. The thought of thinking all the words that came out are all bullshits, excuses blah blah. Isn't it tiring to wear different masks when you are out to meet different groups of people? Just the thought of it is mentally draining enough for me. Perfunctory, thats something I need to master. I know of a particular one who does it really well. Perhaps, this is an easier way out so as not to disappoint. Indeed. But actions, behavior and time do reveal your thoughts afterall isn't it? Gawd. Enough said! Just how did I link two different person together?
And why am I so angsty? Perhaps I had a bad day today. My day didn't starts right, from the start. Waking up early, editing my report, got my lunch packed and ate it at a bus stop (as I was rushing for time, my first and definitely my last! Can you imagine how weird it is to hold your box of beehoon and wolfing it down at the bus stop for fear the bus would arrive any minute), gotten mosquito bites at awkward areas, bruises from no idea where, got my skin cut by a therapist (it bleeds, and to the nerve of her to ask me if its painful?). Oh well, at least something turns out Right now. I just finishes my report! Yay! Gonna have it turnitin tomorrow and printed and I'm done! :)
Ignore my brother at the back. Headed over to Starbucks to do my assignment just yesterday, alone.
Loving the tranquility
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